After My First Week

I've just finished my first week here on Weight Watchers on Wednesday. A successful week overall. I managed to lost about 3.5 pounds. Not bad considering I haven't lost any weight in almost a year. I'll take it. :)

I'm really enjoying it. I haven't started changing my eating habits too much. I'm eating what I like and trying to stay within my points. I ate quite a few of my weekly points last week but still managed to lose weight so I'm happy. A successful first week, I think.

One of the other things that I'm doing in addition to WW is I'm posting my goals everywhere I might see them. I have a chalkboard in my bedroom with my April goals and long term goals. I also took a picture and made it the wallpaper on my phone. It might seem a bit overkill, but it reminds me why I'm doing this.

My goals for April are:

• Lose 5 pounds
• Have at least £100 left in current account
• Exercise 3 times a week
• Finish advanced training (at work).

My long term goals are:

• Lose 22kg (approx. 50 pounds)
• Save enough money for my visa (I'm American now living in the UK; husband is British)
• Control my shopping habit (definitely going to try to have shopping as a reward rather than all the time; difficult since I work in a shop)
• Love my husband more.

Some of them may seem silly or pointless, but they are mine. I'm determined to meet all of them. They may not happen as soon as I would hope, but I know they're all achievable.

I also got a Fitbit so hopefully that will help encourage me to meet one of my goals and also get me more active in general. I'm going to pick it up at the post office today before getting my hair cut. I'm not sure what my goal is going to be everyday. Any suggestions would be much appreciated. :)

I hope everyone's week is going great!

Changes are Coming

Well, my oldest sister in law just announced that she's pregnant with her second baby. I'm still trying to figure out how this makes me feel. I'm not even sure if I really am happy for her or not. All I know is that it doesn't seem fair. She's overweight like I am. Our husbands are brothers. There's not much different between our situations except she can have children, and I apparently never will.

It makes me feel mad and bitter and that things just aren't fair. I know life isn't fair. I know that things suck from time to time for everybody, but her life just seems so charmed. She never had issues getting into England despite being American too. She's never had issues getting pregnant. She didn't struggle to get a job after moving here. I had so many problems trying to visit my now husband. She overstayed her visa and was still allowed to come in for two more weeks. I'd only been here for two months, and the border control people almost didn't let me in. She got pregnant on the very first try with her first. My husband and I have been trying for about two years and nothing. She got a job the first month she got here. It took me two years to get a job, and it's only part time.

Now she's pregnant with her second, and it's just so not fair. I really wish I could go back to America. At least then, I'd have my family around me. I'd have the support from them to get through this tough time. Best of all, I'd never have to see either of my sisters-in-law pregnant again.

It might be time for my husband and I to reconsider our situation. I know I need to lose weight in order to get IUI or IVF on the NHS. I know things are going to have to change. Hopefully, I've started to make those changes. The dietician's plan ended up not working for me so I have now joined Weight Watchers. I'm also trying to figure out which Fitbit to get. If you have any suggestions, please let me know. I also found a Zumba class in town on Mondays and Thursdays that I want to join.

My goal is that by the time my sister in law has this baby, I will be on my way to having my own. It's scary and exciting all at the same time. I feel more committed now than ever before. My determination has reawakened, and it's going to happen. I know there are people on my side, and I have faith in myself. I know it's going to happen this year!