Wednesday, September 16, 2015

God will lead me where I need to go

Not much has happened since the last time I was here which is probably a good thing. Since the last time I was here, I've read through all of my old posts. Quite a few sounded a bit complain-y. I seem to use this blog as a sounding off point rather than an actual record of what I'm going through. I'm hoping to change that because there is so much I have to be thankful for. I am one of the most blessed people in the world. I may not have children (and may never have any), but there are so many things I do have. I have a wonderful husband who treats me like a princess. A job that gives me spending money and allows me to help pay bills where necessary. I have a house to live in and food in my belly. So what do I really have to complain about? God has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams. He has provided for me in so many different ways. Because of Him, I'm where I am today. One day, I know He will give me a baby too for He knows the deepest desires of my heart. I just need to not worry about anything. 
Recently, I joined a group on Facebook for women who want to be mums but haven't yet due to infertility. The group leader reminded me that all I need to is keep the faith and God will lead us where we need to go. It's true. Both of us (the group leader and I) have husbands that were diagnosed with azoospermia as a result of cancer. The other crazy thing is that she's from Texas too! It could only have been God that lead us to each other. She and I are now friends on Facebook as well (she added me). What are the odds of any of this though? Slim I'm sure. 
Now for a quick update. I've restarted on the weight loss. I'm still doing Weight Watchers. My first week back, I lost 1.5kg. This past week I only lost 300 grams. However, my weight did go down and that's what matters the most. That's almost four pounds in just two weeks which is still good. Plus, this is a new week so who knows what will happen. I could lose five pounds. You just never know. The only One that does is God. He will get me where I need to go.